I'm sitting in a sports bar at the moment, I would snap some pics but I'm by myself and that would look weird. There's a lot of people in the bar tonight for a Monday night, appears they're celebrating St. Patrick's Day. Everyone's wearing some sort of green getup, assorted green scarves and green hats. A young girl was at the door handing out green plastic hats for a buck, I politely declined.
Holy shit, I'm just noticing that with everything that's been going on, I forgot it was St. Paddies Day. At this very moment as I write this, most of the entire nation of Ireland is drunk. Pretty sweet observation because for a boring Monday night in Portland, it's exciting to know that there is place at the very moment where everyone is partying like no tomorrow.
I came into the bar because of boredom, and I really needed a drink. I don't normally frequent this bar, even though it's a two minute walk away from my house…three minutes if I have to wait at the crosswalk.
I've been laying off the alcohol for the last three or four weeks, the whole situation with the woman living with me kept me from drinking. I don't like to drink when life is not right, and the woman made my life very not right.
I am an alcoholic, alcohol is a drug that I have a problem controlling. I love its reassuring warmth, its comforting effect during times of stress or doubt.
Alcohol can have effects on my personality that I don't particularly like, effects such as dulling my ability to give a shit. That is why I have been refraining from drinking, I didn't want to make any foolish mistakes. I know me, had I been drinking during this woman trouble I would of made a lot of costly mistakes because of alcohol.
Sometimes in my life, the only time I will drink is if I am awake. This can be a very strict rule, one that if not obeyed will send me into DTs. Usually when I reach this point I know it's time to stop drinking, too much control is lost.
Now that the woman has a new place to stay and I am free to travel, I think I'm in a better state of mind and can be drunk again.
**************** Next Day ***************
The bar was a lot of fun, I didn't know anyone and was writing this post when a group of people sat with me. I was sitting alone at a table near the back, the group saw I was alone on my tablet and wanted me to drink with them. I knew this because when they approached me, they filled my glass with beer from their pitcher.
St. Patrick's Day rules! I absolutely cannot believe I let that slip by, even more incredible is I didn't miss it. It was a good thing I felt like drinking last night, otherwise I would have missed out.
I ended up drinking all the night with the group that approached me, very nice folks in their 30s. There were two women and three men, two couples and the single dude. All the other ladies in the bar seemed to be with someone too, so I settled for drinking and talking with my new friends. I had some weed on me so we all went outside occasionally to get high, it was a really nice time.
The plan is still on, Las Vegas at the end of the month when I get paid. Not long, two more weeks from now and I'll be there. I have to just hang on and be patient.
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